Actually I don't think I convinced myself I don't like him, I'm just not ready.... I'm still very much in love with someone I'll never be with ever again. I still dream about laying in bed like we used to, as he would lean in softly for a kiss, or the first night we were back in each others arms after years of waiting. I always say I will always love you to a guy when he breaks my heart but this is the first time it stuck for over a year, and I can only wonder how long is this going to be?