Wednesday, January 27, 2010

No one could ever wait for you, I'll wait for you.

I miss writing in this blog, But I feel anything I need to say isn't too exciting.

So I finally got a job at Dairy Queen in December and I've almost saved up enough to move out on my own. I will be moving to Toronto. I think it will be good for me since I was dumped again. I need to do this for myself, just start fresh and not think about anything else but myself.

So there you go, I feel all I write about in this blog is being dumped by some boy.

Oh! and I started sketching again and I really want to get into painting (even though I suck).

I just wanted to end this blog by expressing how much I will never find someone who will fully appreciate the love I am willing to give. I don't think anyone is capable. I thought I did finally find someone who did because he expressed how sweet and caring I am and that he needed that. But you know I'm used to being lied to by now. I felt as if I was constantly on my tippy toes wondering if he really meant that. I think guys mistake me caring about them as my number one priority but that's being self centered. Just because I want to be closer to you doesn't mean I wouldn't do something for myself.

I'm sorry I care about you just as much as myself.
I'm sorry I don't ignore you and treat you like shit.
I'm sorry I take the time to appreciate how gorgeous you are.
I'm sorry I'm so affectionate.
I'm sorry I try to make you happy.
I'm sorry for wanting to spend time with you.

I don't know anymore....

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