and you seem so bruised and it's beautiful.

So I haven't updated this thing since September
Mostly because of school, work and putting a lot of effort into relationship that ended over Christmas break.

Well, I went up Halifax a second time, I see I wrote all about the first time on here.
both trips were amazing. Halifax kinda sucks, but I didn't go there for Halifax.

So really recently, I haven't been doing that good. I think I can consider myself depressed.
Yeah, that's the right word. I mean, what else would it be?
I constantly think about him, Can't sleep because of it, I cry everyday and I have no ambition to do anything.

And it's not only because of him. I feel like I have no friends. Well..I have friends..but none of them are that close. I feel completely alone. I need someone who completely understands what I am talking about and responds back. Instead of just nodding, agreeing, saying there's many fish in the sea or calling him a "douche bag".

Wow, listen to me...fuck...complain complain complain..this is not me at all.

I have been trying to surround myself with people, but I feel it's artificial temporary happiness. Because when I go to bed, the thinking kicks back in.

Ugh..this blog is everywhere...I need to stop.